Saturday 30 January 2010

January Blues

January has been a tough month. BVC wise, all seems to be ok, Legal Research has consumed me and I shall spend the next five days in a frenzied panic trying to catch up with the rest of the studying I need to do for next weekend, but in comparison to everything else, it's absolutely fine.
January has been tough because I'm so far away from where I need to be. My current job is only temporary and is due to end at the end of the financial year, and despite newsreaders announcing that the recession is "over" I'm adopting a "I'll believe it when I see it" attitude, especially towards the jobs market. Today is the 4th anniversary of my relationship with Lovely Boy, but here I am stuck in Brummie land with a ton of work to do and he's down in London sad and lonely (also with a ton of work). Its pretty miserable really. Especially as he seems to be suffering a great deal at the moment with low self esteem and needs to not be on his own. Emotionally I'm so worried about him that I don't seem to be able to concentrate fully on my studies or job or anything else. I feel so guilty because if only I had managed to find a job in London I would be with him and able to help him to feel better. Instead I rely on the telephone to try and perk him up, which works for all of 1o minutes and then he feels down again. I have decided that cloning myself is the only way forward and will try and figure out how to do so as soon as my Legal Research is complete.
In other news, I dined at Middle Temple for the first time this month, and was very impressed with the food. The thing I didn't like though, was that the Benchers were completely separate from the students. I think it was because it was a private guest night and I'm hoping that there is a bit more mixing generally, but if not I'm not sure I see the point. I thought the whole point of qualifying sessions was to get to know other people, network and become a part of the community. I'm hoping the next one I go to is a bit more inclusive.
I also mooted again and am now through to the Quarter Final of the competition I'm in. Not bad for a first attempt. Of course it does mean I have another moot that I have to fit in preparation for around full time work and part time study. I'm not sure that the other part time students in the moot weren't relieved to have been knocked out! The fourth mooter in our round was a full timer and she was streets ahead of us. She used some brilliant expressions (which I fully intend to steal for the next round) and I was slightly in awe.